Gonna have it on repeat till I wake up.
I haven’t been a good friend lately.
But I do hope my friends are doing well.
Take care ya’ll.
Its almost 7 am and I just got home. Had a crazy ass night but my phone is now missing.. Hopefully its just misplaced..
I suspended my service for now. This shit sucks for personal reasons.. x(
If anyone has a spare verizon phone i’d be happy to hear from you lol. Goodnight!
Cause my family could find out about all the things that I do and that would ruin shit for me. I wish I could trust everybody to mind their own business but I can’t.
Typed something out and deleted it by mistake ._.
And I’ll never tell.
And that’s the fucking truth.
I can’t even fucking explain how pissed off I am. I’m fucking done with people.
The days go by so fast.
I have class later, then a ridiculous workshop to go to. I’m sure its gonna be boring.
I only ate once yesterday, I guess I didn’t notice the hours go by. I’ll eat after this .. I should probably wash the dishes that are piling up in the sink before I go to bed too.
Life is so strange lately.. I don’t know what to make of it. It concerns me.
& I wonder why my mother hasn’t called. I miss her.
There’s another thing on my mind though. It seems as though people expect me to make tremendous efforts to be a part of their life. A few do try to make me part of theirs and it makes me happy. But if I become a blur its okay, I’m done trying for people who won’t try for me.
Its like all the emotions I feel mix together and I stop feeling anything at all.
And it’ll be my 20th birthday. I hope I feel better than I did today. I’m probably going to try and knockout before 12 for once. I really hope I’m not on tumblr very much tomorrow lol, that doesn’t sound like a good birthday. Mmm I feel like writing more shit but I can’t think of anything. I’m just gonna go eat some ice cream and call it a night(:
And I wanted to post something personal, but I don’t want people to try and understand me. I don’t even understand me.
Birthday: November 15th
Birthplace: Indio, CA
Current Location: Desert Hot Springs, CA
Eye Color: Dark Brown
Hair Color: Black
Weight: Not sure.. between 110-118
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Weakness: Caring..
Your Fears: Not accomplishing anything I want to. & Letting my loved ones down.
Your Perfect Pizza: Pepperoni with extra cheese. Simple.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Well this years almost up.. so nothing specific or big.
Thoughts First Waking Up: Depends on the day.. Usually “I need to start sleeping earlier”
Your Best Physical Feature: I honestly wouldn’t know.
Your Bedtime: Whenever I fall asleep.
Your Most Missed Memory: There’s people I miss.. and time frames.
Pepsi or Coke: I’ll stick with water.
McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
Single or Group Dates: Doesn’t matter, as long as its fun :)
Chocolate or Vanilla: Depends on what I’m eating.
Do you Swear: Like a sailor.
Do you Sing: I love to :)
Have you Been in Love: Sure have.
Do you want to go to College: I am in college.
Do you want to get Married: Who knows nigga.
Do you belive in yourself: I haven’t given myself a reason to doubt myself :)
Do you think you are Attractive: Sure.
Are you a Health Freak: People would probably think I am based on looks.. But I’m FAAAR from being a health freak.
Do you get along with your Parents: Just my mother, I love her<3
Ever been Drunk: Sure have.
Ever been called a Tease: Umm I don’t think so.
Ever been Beaten up: Nope.
How do you want to Die: Hopefully of old age. Or doing something completely worth it. I just hope its not something stupid as hell.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: I don’t think it matters..
Favourite Hair Color: Doesn’t matter.
Short or Long Hair: Whatever they prefer.
Height: Shorter than me :p
Weight: Umm just not whale status..
Best Clothing Style: Whatever’s clever.
Number of Drugs I have taken: Depends on what you consider drugs..
Number of CDs I own: Physical cd’s? A crap load of mixes. Digital? Even more.
Number of Piercings: Just my snakebites. So 2.